"You don't know what

you got 'till it's gone"
i finally realized what that

quote means. in so many ways.

rest of the year :)

october 31-halloween
november 3-glee soundtrack
november 20-new moon
november 21-new moon again
november 23-lady gaga cd
november 27-pro d
december 9-lady gaga concert
december 21-schools out
december 25-christmas
december 31-new years

keep holding on, 'cause you know we'll make it through; just stay strong, 'cause you know i'm here for you

I’m sorry for changing.

I’m sorry it had to be this way.

Believe me,

it’s easier just to pretend.

But, I won’t apologize for who I am.

who did you just think of?

I don't care if you have a boyfriend or girlfriend right now.I don't care if you are a guy or a woman Just read this, it will make a difference.If only everyone could see this and understand it.When she stares at your mouth,Kiss her.When she pushes you or hits you like a dumb-ass it's because she thinks shes stronger than you,Grab her and dont let go.When she starts cursing at you trying to act all tough,Kiss her and tell her you love her.When she's quiet,Ask her whats wrong.When she tries to make you jealousIt means she wants you to care about herWhen she ignores you,Give her your attention.When she pulls away,Pull her back.When you see her at her worst,Tell her she's beautiful.When you see her start crying,Just hold her and don't say a word.When you see her walking,Sneak up and hug her waist from behind.When she's scared,Protect her.When she steals your favorite hoodie,Let her keep it and sleep with it for a night.When she teases you,Tease her back and make her laugh.When she doesn't answer for a long time,reassure her that everything is okay.When she looks at you with doubt,Back yourself up.When she says that she loves you,she really does more than you can understand.When she grabs at your hands,Hold hers and play with her fingers.When she bumps into you,bump into her back and make her laugh.When she tells you a secret,keep it safe and untold.When she looks at you in your eyes,dont look away until she does.When she says it's over,she still wants you to be hers.When she reposts this bulletin,she wants you to read it.Stay on the phone with her even if she's not saying anything.When she's mad hug her tight and don't let go.When she says she's ok don't believe it.Call her at 12:00am on her birthday to tell her you love her.Treat her like she's all that matters to you.Stay up all night with her when she's sick.Watch her favorite movie with her or her favorite show even if you think it's stupid.Give her the world.When she makes a mistake, forgive herWhen you make a mistake, tell her how sorry you areLet her wear your clothes.When she's bored and sad, hang out with her.Let her know she's important.Don't talk about other girls around her.Kiss her in the pouring rain.When she runs up to you crying, the first thing you say is:"Whose ass am i kicking baby?"

my favorite song will say more

about me than my mouth every will.

i can't help but wonder, what if

I love everything you are,
and everything you're not

bella's house october 11

road closed, but we went in anyway

lane driving up
soo tiny than i remembered, they added another tree at the front
side, i still want to know why there is a boat there

guy sitting in front was watching me take pictures, he probs

gets a lot of fans a day

fake tree? there was a light on inside the house

while we were driving away i was looking at each of the cars to see if anyone famous or the director would drive by. i saw a red mustang that looked too fancy for the area and i saw a black volvo that they might have used for both new moon and eclipse drive by as well.

I really wish this whole thing never happened and that things were back to where the were before :( I really miss you. I can't even listen to my favorite songs without thinking about you and it really makes me think of when you said how you're not over us either, but yet you decided to make this decision.

saturday night live

"I believe in Karma. I believe it exists and whatever you do in your everyday life makes the person that you are. What you give in life comes back to you. I’m convinced of that, so I’m sure that everyday you have to be a good person and treat everyone with respect. We’re all connected."

-Robert Pattinson

It just hurts that after all we've been through, after all we've shared you'd just decide to end it like this. The worst is that you say you're sorry, when we all know you're not.